Give Forward

7 years ago my life changed forever..  Never thought it could get any worse then to be diagnoses with "infertility".  Little did I know the next 7 years would be so emotionally and financially draining it would basically take over my life.  After 3 IUI's, 2 IVF's and exhausting all medical benefits and money we FINALLY got pregnant...  TWINS will be a word I will never forget.  After the initial shock it began to sink in and I was ever so happy.  13 weeks later my life took a turn for the worse.  Watching the ultrasound screen and seeing the faces on the techs - I knew something was wrong.  We had lost twin B.  We trudged forward to get through the next months knowing we would soon see little baby A.  But appointment after appointment and bad news after more bad news, we knew we were in for a ride.  We were told the baby had this and that but could never be 100% confirmed.  So our plan of action was to get this baby to due date and accept whatever God had given us...  At 23 weeks I started having severe pains in my upper stomach.  At 24 weeks I was transferred to one of the best hospitals in our area and was told I had Pre-clampsia and Hellp syndrome and this baby had a very slim chance of making it...  At 24 he was only 11 ounces - he had severe IUGR.  At that point it did not even register with us, I knew in my heart he would make it and that was all there was to it.  At 25 weeks later dr. came in and said there was nothing else they could do for me, I was getting worse and they were going to deliver.  They prepared us well to have a stillborn baby or a baby that maybe only made it an hour...  Well, little Mikey Jr. proved them all wrong. I was under, but dr.s told me he came out crying and he even took breathes on his own.  MIRACLE in itself.  12 ounces and 10 inches long I am told was the smallest this hospital has ever seen.  He was doing quite well, started eating at 13 days and had eyes opened and was cute as a button.  After that we started the roller coaster ride.  Little things started showing up day by day.  His kidneys were failing, he has 3 major infections, twisted bowels - the little guy was just to small....  He was so brave and fought so hard for 48 amazing days, to which he then said he was to tired and passed away at 9:15 pm in my arms October 14th.  I thought my life was over, till this day I still sleep with his picture on my chest - to know he is there sleeping with me somehow gives me a bit of comfort.  A couple months after his passing, we received an amazing gift.  A call from my sister in law saying she wanted to be our surrogate.  A couple weeks before I was told I would never be able to carry another baby.  A lifelong dream of mine to have a few kids.  After crying hysterically I certainly accepted the offer.  Now comes the hard part.  PAYMENT.  Who would have thought to have a baby this day and age would cost $25,000 after the procedure and lawyers and counseling etc...  Seems a bit much but to think this is my only option I want to somehow get there and move forward.  After paying 8,000 of my own medical bills for having Mikey Jr, and still owing for his, that leaves us with not much left.  I know that there are so many people out there probably more deserving then me and have way bigger problems but I still have to try.  I have set up this amazing website in hopes to possibly get donations made.  We will also be updating it with fundraisers as we work them out.  If anyone would like to get involved we would be forever grateful.....  Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for even logging on and hearing our story - Erica, Mike and Nicole.  I can not seem to get on to add our video but if anyone would like to watch our story here is the link.  http://www.onetruemedia.com/otm_site/view_shared?p=96fff11829bc992715b1a8&skin_id=1802